I always thought that if you had children at an older age you were better off. My thinking... You're more secure mentally, financially and in your relationship. But it never entered my mind that physically I might not be able to keep up.
I had my first child at 36 followed by twins at 40 or 41-- I can't even remember. And now I'm 33 weeks pregnant at the age of 42. Being pregnant at 42 is a constant reminder of just how old I really am. While I don't think I look 42 my body seems that of a 60-year-old. I am so worn down, worn out and just generally exhausted. Getting out of bed is now a labor of love. I have to do it to take care of my little ones-- but oh how I wish I could just sleep until 11:00am. Those days are long gone!
The biggest problem is I never lost the baby from my first child. That was a BIG mistake! Plenty of people said not to worry-- do it after you're done having kids. I took that advice very literally. But now, I'm paying the price. When you have children at an older age it's even more important to be in shape and at a healthy weight. The weight and the lack of fitness definitely slows you don't physically and mentally. I remember when I used to work out 5 times a week, sometimes 2 hours a day. That included cardio, weight training, kickboxing and my favorite-- Pilates. My most recent exercise happened on a vacation to Paris with my girlfriends. We walked everywhere and never once hopped in a cab. I forced myself to push my body during the whole trip. While it was good for me I can't imagine doing it again.
Now all I can think about is getting my body back. It has become a priority, even an obsession. It has come ahead of coming up with a name for this baby and I fear I will cut out the breast-feeding earlier than previous babies. It sounds so selfish-- but right now I feel I need to put myself first. If I don't, I can't be a good mother. This philosophy is not for everyone but I think it's going to work for me. I'm sure many mothers would be incensed by the idea. But it's important to remember that motherhood does not come in one size.
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